Java with Justin

A little updated...

I know that it’s been some time since I last posted an entryon my blog. Lately I have beengoing through different things in my personal life, as well as my pursuit on mydreams in music and writing. I knew that it was not going to be easy to make mydreams a reality, but I did not realize that it would be this difficult.

I moved away from everything I knew in North Carolina to pursue alifelong dream. When I came to thecity of Nashville, I had no idea that I would learn more about myself andaccept the unchangeable in life. Ihave noticed all the blessings and joy that a person can experience inlife.

Even though I have experienced some times of discourage, Ihave been met with love from friends and family (both biological and chosenfamily). I am blessed to havetheir love and support whether or not my lifelong dreams of entering into theindustries of music and writing. Ihave been told that they are proved of me no matter what.

Thank you for taking the time to read this posting. I hopethat you will continue to look at what’s going on with the pursuits of musicand writing.

My two cents...

Over the last couple weeks, we have seen a handful of celebrities: Ricky Martin, Chely Wright and Jennifer Knapp coming out as gay, with that I have seen the views of member of the Christian community and even those outside of the Christian community. With those that may or not know my background of being a son of an ordained minister and even I was in the ministry for a short period of time myself, might be surprised on the view of point that I have on this particular topic. I do realize that my point of view may or may not matter to anyone, butlike anyone I have an opinion.

I feel that all that matters is whether or not someone is happy with who they are, and they are happy with the life they are leading. It is better that someone is honest with himself or herself than hiding their true self in the fear of rejection. There are many in this world, in church congregations and in schools that fear therejection of someone knowing the secrets. They might even fear that the unconditional love from their friends and family may perhaps come with conditions.

Over the years, I have listened to the music of Ricky Martin, Chely Wright and Jennifer Knapp. I have always seen them as performer,whose music may or may not have influenced me as some point, like singers that you would find in the same genres of music as these three individuals. Growing up I was taught that it was the character of the individual, not appearance or sexuality or anything else.

I do realize that I grew up in the Bible-belt, which is where I continue to live that sees various things a little bit differently. Some would also saythat it is not right to fall in love, or want to spend your life with someone of the same gender as they are. I say, that we as humans are not the ones that decide whether or not someone is living their life right in our individual points of views. I believe that only God, the Creator has decision on any matter.

Throughout my life I have heard and seen someone quick to point out what they feel is someone else’s faults. I have seen countless times thatsomeone in the church runs to scripture that they often take out of context. The intent that thewriter of the scripture may or may not have intended for the modern audience that is reading the writings today. I do not pretend to be a theologian or be an expert of the Bible, but I grew up in the church and for a short period of my life, I was a Bible student on the collegiate level.

In no way am I trying to get anyone to believe the same way that I do. In writing this blog entry I am throwing my two cents in. I felt that I should say something after reading different writings from individuals in mainstream community and the Christian community.

Thank you.

The results have been announce from the modeling contest I was a part of. I want to thank everyone for their votes.

I now own an Apple.

Hey Folks.

After only using PCs for the passed 20 years (yes, I started using a computer in the first grade), I have decided to switch things up and become an Apple person. With using Apply computers in computer labs and even using my roommate's Apple computer, I had decided to have one of my own. I believe that owning my own personal Apple would make the process of writing my novel and recording music, a little bit more easy.

So, there you go...I'm an Apple user.

...2years...

It's crazy to me that I have been living in Nashville for 2 years. I have experienced so much and there is a lot that I have yet to experience as well. I would not have made thus far if I didn't have the love and support of close friends of mine. There has been many times that I have thought about packing up my bags and going back to the surroundings that I was familiar with. Thank you to those in my life that told me that I need to stick it out and do what I came to this city to do.

Please, vote for me...

I am part of modeling contest that I am going to need you help with. What you do is follow this link ( http://www.nashvillenewzine.com/Fashion.html ), then you can click on the link that says "vote". You are able to vote for me once a day, from today (February 15) to April 12. Under "My Vote is For:" enter Justin. Thank you very much in advance for your help.

New Year brings on a new adventure...

We are a month into the brand new year and it has already brought new adventures into my life.

I have decided recently to begin the process of writing a book. Ever since I was 18 years old I have wanted to write a book and I figured that the present time is the best as any. It was around the same time that I started to have english professor telling that I had the making of a great writer and that I should try to write a book sometime. I felt that I should give it a try and see what happens. Prehaps I may find the startings of a writing career.

Just recently I have been contacted about a local contest in reguards to modeling. I figure what would it hurt to give it a try. Prehaps I may end up back in modeling. We shall see. Anything is possible.

A new year has come...

I do realize that it has been a while since I have written a blog entry. We are saying goodbye to 2009 and say hello to a brand new year. I am excited about the unknown that is around the corner for my personal life and for my professional life. I hope that everyone a happy New Year.

Listen....

Over the last couple of week I have been debating over something and I feel that I have made the decision that I can live with. I have decide to put less engery into my modeling and place more into my writing, as well as my pursuit of the music industry.

I have asked close friends and family, their thoughts over what I should do. Where the final decision would be only mine to make.

If the right job comes along I will step back in front of the camera as a model. I will not close myself off to the possibly of doing a project that might be right for me. So, please do not hesitant to contact me.

This was not a decision that I want rush into. I have had a few people tell me that it was something that I should not stop focusing on.

I believe that I have made the right decision for myself.

Take it easy. I will be sharing my writing with you shortly and you never know when I might have new photos for you.

I have been thinking...

I have been looking over my different writings to see what I want to show with the recreating of my website. I begin to think about what things that I want to put out there that I don't want to be too personal. Then again, a lot of my writings that I have gotten awards for have been ones that come from a personal place.

I write about things that I know. I never write about something I can not relate to. Often the best writings that I read from other writers are ones that are very personal.

Perhaps with sharing my writings, I will be more open. I will share my experience and relive the moments in my life that I am writing about. I write about my joys, my hurts and the times of confusion in my life.

So, as you will begin to check back on my website and on my blog entries. You will begin to see the man that I have become and an insight to the journey that I have taken thus far. I will always be nervous to release a piece of writing to the public view. But, how will I ever get anywhere as a writer, as a lyricist, as a songwriter if I always keep things close. My writing has been and will always be for me, but it's time that I share it with others. And hopefully I will find a career in this area, if it's meant to be.

I will be exposed. I will be raw in the words that I leak on a page.

Thank you guys. Have a good night.